In the past few months, I have been talking to mothers of all ages, to understand how and what went through them while they were pregnant. Yesterday, it so happened that I was talking to my husband's granny who is a mother of 8 children Actually she had 10 children but only 8 saw the world. Her first and last child has a difference nearly 30 years. She was saying she used to have worse morning sickness every time and her 30 years was spent in pregnancy.
After hearing all those story I am having a weird feeling. I am just nearing 5 months and I feel being pregnant or bringing up a kid is not an easy task. All my time and thought is devoted to the baby. I don't want to be a compulsive mom. But I think its natural. We all want our baby to be good and health. I have made so much lifestyle changes that I have already started missing some thing I really love, like junk food, traveling etc. I know I can't indulge in all these things for another 1 - 2 yrs. I am finding it difficult but before the baby these things seem insignificant. But doing that for 30 years, about 1/2 of the life time seems unimaginable and scary.
Anyway I am not planning to have so many. First let me have one. Then may be other. Thats it. I think though my next 10-15 years will be devoted to bringing up the baby(ies), I will like to do things that I love. Huh.. I am really confused now. Will I be a bad mom? Have you felt the same? Do anyone feel there is a life other than kids also?