Being Normal Panic

Being in the second trimester, I am not sick most of the time. After few months of sickness and abnormality, when things are normal, I am panicking. [My husband laughs at it]. I have a little voice inside me saying "You are feeling good, Is everything fine?". I think being sick kept reminding me I am pregnant. Now that I am not nauseous or not  having any ache, I forget I am pregnant. The discomforts kept reminding me to take healthy food, drink lots of water and relax. It was like my alarm clock. Now, I have to keep reminding that I am pregnant and I have a responsibility. 

Pregnancy indeed brings lot of changes, both physically and mentally. And the funny panics like these makes it more memorable I guess :)

Hearing the Heart Beat

Yesterday I had my monthly doctor's visit. During the visit doctor tried to identify the heart beat of the baby. When she increased the volume in the device, I was able to hear the heart beat. The sound was like fast train crossing the poles when sitting in it with windows open. Dhak Dhak Dhak  Dhak. Even my husband jumped in to hear it. Wow! It was awesome. Feeling closer to my baby everyday. I am simply awestruck by the progress and development of the little creature in my tummy. 

The sad part is that Doctor has prescribed addition tablets. One of them is Mama's Protein. Its just horrible. I just had a sip in the morning and almost vomited. God, How can we drink that? I tried to drink by mixing it in mango shake, better but I think soon I will start hating mango shake itself. Any ideas how to make it drinkable? 

And, How was your hearing the heart beat experience? Share your blog link if u have written about it, I will love to read it.

Not Pregnant-women-friendly

I had been working from home and just returned to office for the past 1 week. Though I am dropped off and picked up by my husband from office, end of the day I am tired. The traffic is horrible, as always, it takes more an an hour to just travel 10 km. Worse than traffic is the road condition itself, humps, pot holes and patched road, makes the ride very bumpy. The other concern is the reckless driving by others on the road. 

Let alone the streets, even my office is not pregnant-friendly. My doctor has advised me not to lift or push heavy objects. Every door in the office is so heavy that I have to give my full strength to open the doors.I tailgate the main doors but the doors to rest rooms are the real problem. I am visiting the rest rooms so many times everyday, all the pushing and pulling scares me. The next problem is my office doesn't have a dorm or place to rest. If I feel giddy or wanna relax for a while, only option is to hunt for an empty conference or team room, pull the chairs together and lie on them. And finally there are no leg rest. As I am putting on weight, I sometimes feel the need to stretch my legs. So I have placed some cartons to put my feet on that. It will be great if they provided a stool or something. 

I am coming up with my own adjustments and tricks, but I really wish the company which employs so many girls should adopt an environment friendly for pregnant women. How about your office? Any tips to overcome my discomforts in office? 

A Weird thought and Now confused?

In the past few months, I have been talking to mothers of all ages, to understand how and what went through them while they were pregnant. Yesterday, it so happened that I was talking to my husband's granny who is a mother of 8 children Actually she had 10 children but only 8 saw the world. Her first and last child has a difference nearly 30 years. She was saying she used to have worse morning sickness every time and her 30 years was spent in pregnancy.

After hearing all those story I am having a weird feeling. I am just nearing 5 months and I feel being pregnant or bringing up a kid is not an easy task. All my time and thought is devoted to the baby. I don't want to be a compulsive mom. But I think its natural. We all want our baby to be good and health. I have made so much lifestyle changes that I have already started missing some thing I really love, like junk food, traveling etc. I know I can't indulge in all these things for another 1 - 2 yrs. I am finding it difficult but before the baby these things seem insignificant. But doing that for 30 years, about 1/2 of the life time seems unimaginable and scary.

Anyway I am not planning to have so many. First let me have one. Then may be other. Thats it. I think though my next 10-15 years will be devoted to bringing up the baby(ies), I will like to do things that I love. Huh.. I am really confused now. Will I be a bad mom? Have you felt the same? Do anyone feel there is a life other than kids also?  

I wonder if its a He or She??

I am 15 weeks pregnant today. As per the weekly fetal development, my baby's sex organs are formed and an ultrasound would show the gender of my baby. How is wish I could know the sex of my baby? I am not a person of secrets and mysteries. Even when I read any novel, I just blush past the chapters to know the climax.

I am very much anxious to know whether its a he or she. I am fine either ways. When I talk to the baby, I really not sure how to refer my baby. Also, I am planning all the baby room and stuff, the gender neutral things are less appealing. I really respect the law against sex determination and understand the significance of it. But, I just feel it would be great knowing the sex.

Anyway, this time I can't brush through the chapters. I want the baby to be in my womb till the essential time. So, this mystery will remain unsolved till November.

Do you think I am crazy or you had similar feeling???

My Pregnancy diet plan

When I say to people I am pregnant, the immediate advise would be to eat health and take a lot of rest. Eating has become extremely important in the past few months. Thankfully, I am not nauseous of any food. My craving is salt, I guess, I want to eat everything with an extra pinch of salt. Unfortunately, eating a lot of salt is not health and increases the blood pressure, so I am trying to overcome my craving. 

In the past few months, I am hungry all the time. My baby would love food I guess. Touch wood!!! I have to keep my mouth busy all the time. With so many advises from many people, I am making all efforts to eat health food. My diet Plan:

Pre-breakfast: All-bran + muesli flakes with milk, a fruit

Breakfast: Idli/poha/upma, coconut 

Post-Breakfast: fruits/juice, almonds, dates and dry fruits, Ragi malt

Lunch: Rice, sambhar, curry, vegetable, spinach, tender coconut

Post Lunch: Fruit and juice

Evening: Milk, fruits, multi-grain biscuits

Dinner: Roti, curry, fruit

Post-dinner: Milk with saffron

Hah, my stomach is able to hold so much. Great!!!.. Hopefully, I am taking in all the sufficient nutrients for the baby. If anyone has suggestions, please comment. I am open to any advise. It's my first time and like everyone else I want to have any healthy baby.

First Thought

Due date and the week of pregnancy has become my identity as a pregnant women now. As per my last ultra sound, I am 14 weeks and 5 days pregnant. I am happy to be identified in this matter though, I am cheered everytime I mention it.

I got to know I was pregnant in the 2nd week of March through hcG blood test. I was shocked, happy, top of the world when I heard the news. I had taken home pregnancy test earlier the week and it can out negative. So I had little hopes and my PCOS report was haunting me. The news just swept me off the floor. From then on, my life is seems much more complete.

I just completed my first trimester. It was full of caution, eating and rest. I am one of the few lucky women who suffer less during their pregnancy. I never vomited and was able to eat everything, though I restricted myself to health food. But nauesa and head-ache made me sick. Anyway knowing I am out of the risky time period is such a relief.

As such, I am a person filled with thoughts. Being pregnant raises so my discussions in my head that I wanna get it out and share it. So I think blogging would help me with that. I am loving "To Be Amma"